I remember when I first came into AA…I wanted to die. I hated life..I hated everyone around me..and I was sure that you hated me too. I wanted the pain to stop but I no longer could remember what I did before I started drinking or drugging. I didn’t know how to live life with or without alcohol. I was at that jumping off place. I listened at meetings and I heard a lady sharing about how empty she was and I could relate. She cried in the meeting that night and I watched how everyone comforted her and how they even seemed to share her pain. That really had an impact on me…it was like I could see that these people were real and not being phony. I wasn’t used to that. I kept coming back and eventually let them get to know me too. They didn’t run away..they didn’t tell me I was junk. They outstretched their arms and told me they loved me and wanted to help. They told me that God didn’t make junk. I opened my heart slowly to these people with the solution and they started sharing it with me. I started getting better. Today, my life is full and I’m grateful to be alive. I thank God every morning for another day to serve Him and my fellows. Today I have inexpressible joy, love and laughter. Today God makes me whole and fills the void that I tried so hard to fill with alcohol. My whole attitude and outlook on life has changed. I was sure that i wouldn’t live past the age of 18. I was 2 years sober on my 18th birthday!! I just turned 41 and I’m still happy and sober. I would never have thought that I would still be here after all these years. God has been so good to me! He surely loved me when i didn’t love him or myself. They told me that it just gets better and when I think it can’t get any better..guess what? it just gets better…and when i definitely think that it can’t get much better…guess what? It Does get better and better and better.
Thanks for listening!